settling in... (again)

for the first time in a long long while - new york is beginning to feel like home once again...

i'm slowly building up a friendship base, and starting to hit up the party scenes... meeting lots of new people - and starting to feel like my old self once again! i'm not all there yet - but it's a gradual process...

the past couple of weeks has been interesting...

i mean - with j, we'd always went dutch on everything... i felt bad because i earned more money than he did.. and it was just odd, and it wouldn't had felt right... i know that this is something that has always bothered him - but whatever...

now, it's nice to have guys pamper me again... picking me up and driving me around (yes - even in nyc!), taking me out to dinner, buying me drinks, getting me little gifts... ahhhh... the life of a single girl.... i really missed this... but i don't know if i enjoy it as much as i did when i was younger - i almost feel guilty now... almost like i owe them something... i don't remember thinking like that before...!

i think i'm lucky that i'm single here in nyc, because being 26 doesn't feel that old here... if i were in hk or sydney, it'd be a different case... but there is an abundance of single ppl at my age (and older) in this city... then again - i'm not sure if that's a good thing or not...

i know i was complaining about the whole dating many ppl at the one time - but within this short time, i think i'm warming up to the idea... i don't know about "dating" several ppl, but "seeing" several ppl doesn't seem to be a bad idea... especially when it seems to be the norm here... having said that - i think it would just feel weird for me.....