faded memories...
do you ever wake up in the morning, or walk out of the house, and when you breathe in the air around you, it reminds you of a previous moment in your life? like - it just takes you back to that moment...?
as i walked out of the apartment this morning, the cold, fresh air hit me, and the distinct smell of the fall breeze and the city hit me hard. it brought about a tinge of sadness. at first, i wondered if it was because i'd miss the warmth of summer.. but then it hit me - that jordan and i broke up around this time last year, and the weather was just as it was when mum had left, and when i was sick in hk...
this dejavu smell thing does not happen very often... only once every 2-3 years or so... but when it happens, it takes me all the way back to that moment and throws me right back there, with all the emotions i feel at the time. and it feels as strong and as real as it did back then...
i remember the first time i had this happened...i woke up in the morning back in sydney - maybe when i was 16 or soand when i felt the warmth of my room, and smelt the smell of warmth of spring. it brought me back to when i was really young, when i had no worries in the world.
it happens quite often when i'm at a beach... the distinct smell of the beach brings me back to many beach moments.. lying in the sun, with my head underneathe a towel, smelling the sun, sand, ocean, and sweat - until the long awaited ocean breeze finally passes by, cooling my heated body just a little...
usually - it gives me an avenue to re-live my happy memories... but not today - today, it just hurt... i had almost forgotten the pain i'd went through... sometimes, some memories are better left forgotten..
now - nobody has ever mentioned experiencing this before, so I decided to do a little research... and lo and behold - i found an article from 1988, "Certain smells evoke stronger memories". it was fascinating to see that there was a fair amount of research performed in this area...
as i walked out of the apartment this morning, the cold, fresh air hit me, and the distinct smell of the fall breeze and the city hit me hard. it brought about a tinge of sadness. at first, i wondered if it was because i'd miss the warmth of summer.. but then it hit me - that jordan and i broke up around this time last year, and the weather was just as it was when mum had left, and when i was sick in hk...
this dejavu smell thing does not happen very often... only once every 2-3 years or so... but when it happens, it takes me all the way back to that moment and throws me right back there, with all the emotions i feel at the time. and it feels as strong and as real as it did back then...
i remember the first time i had this happened...i woke up in the morning back in sydney - maybe when i was 16 or soand when i felt the warmth of my room, and smelt the smell of warmth of spring. it brought me back to when i was really young, when i had no worries in the world.
it happens quite often when i'm at a beach... the distinct smell of the beach brings me back to many beach moments.. lying in the sun, with my head underneathe a towel, smelling the sun, sand, ocean, and sweat - until the long awaited ocean breeze finally passes by, cooling my heated body just a little...
usually - it gives me an avenue to re-live my happy memories... but not today - today, it just hurt... i had almost forgotten the pain i'd went through... sometimes, some memories are better left forgotten..
now - nobody has ever mentioned experiencing this before, so I decided to do a little research... and lo and behold - i found an article from 1988, "Certain smells evoke stronger memories". it was fascinating to see that there was a fair amount of research performed in this area...
posted by c`kREtZ at 2:11 pm
1 Comments:
I think I've had the same thing b4 with smells, but the effect is not as strong. Yours seems to really bring you back. But mine just reminds me of the previous time.
Songs do it more for me. Like, when I hear 'All My Life' - it reminds me of when this idiot who sang it to me in tutoring class. Different songs bring me back to different periods in my life.
Isn't it weird how its already been a year? Same time last year, I was dying for my semester to finish so I could come see you. heheeee
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