losing myself...
i'm losing myself in the city.... i don't know who i am anymore, and i'm scared.
did i lose myself in the big city? or did i lose myself in my prior relationship? or did i lose myself before i even left home?
i just feel so empty right now.
now that i've reached my career goal, i feel tired - too tired to set the next level of goals. and i seem to be failing in everything else.
i know that i'm doing much much better than i was this time last year. i've been promoted. i have a pay rise. i have several new close friends that i can rely on that i didn't have this time last year. i still have my wonderful friends and family back home and in hong kong who still love me and care about me. i'm over my ex-bf, which i wasn't at this time last year.
so how have things gotten worse over the past year? i've lost all integrity. hope. trust. i no longer enjoy the pleasures in life that i once loved. i've made new enemies, and lost some friends..
how can i be happy again? what happened to me?
maybe i just need sleep - this is why i shouldn't work 13 hour days...
ahhh - another contributor to losing myself... losing myself to work... poooooooooo...
did i lose myself in the big city? or did i lose myself in my prior relationship? or did i lose myself before i even left home?
i just feel so empty right now.
now that i've reached my career goal, i feel tired - too tired to set the next level of goals. and i seem to be failing in everything else.
i know that i'm doing much much better than i was this time last year. i've been promoted. i have a pay rise. i have several new close friends that i can rely on that i didn't have this time last year. i still have my wonderful friends and family back home and in hong kong who still love me and care about me. i'm over my ex-bf, which i wasn't at this time last year.
so how have things gotten worse over the past year? i've lost all integrity. hope. trust. i no longer enjoy the pleasures in life that i once loved. i've made new enemies, and lost some friends..
how can i be happy again? what happened to me?
maybe i just need sleep - this is why i shouldn't work 13 hour days...
ahhh - another contributor to losing myself... losing myself to work... poooooooooo...
posted by c`kREtZ at 11:15 pm
2 Comments:
hi sweets,
u're doing really well on ur own, but i think u will feel happier when surrounded by family. Of course this is best done in Syd, but you will feel better if you are in HK too cos of our relos. Also, I don't trust NY guys. It's a bit too similar to Sex & City. I prefer dating life in Syd I think. It seems safer, and more genuine.
Oh, & you can afford so much now with your pay rise. You should be able to afford your own place now. Don't wait for me anymore... heheee or u'll never ever make a purchase with 6 year gap (including wasted year at DP)
hey gal.. whats all this about??
chill out lah.. youve done well .. perhaps you just need to get some balance ? seems you might be neglecting certain areas of ur life.. friends come and go.. unless they are ppl you know since you're 3 (minus 1) =P
health - physical and mental are very important.. food and sleep are vital.. dont worry girl, you'l be getting a lot of sun, food and sleep when u get ur as* over here.. k ?
cheers
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