is there a war out there?
last saturday night, i went out to a bar with Cecilia... pretty much as soon as we got there, a pretty good looking asian guy came over my way and we started chatting. and then Cecilia pounced on him! i mean - literally pounced on him.. she threw her hands all over him, hugging him even as he was trying to talk to me.. then when the music came on, and we were dancing, she didn't let go. it was just getting too awkward, so i tried to pull away, and he tried to pull me back. and then cecilia came over and said to me, "hey, he's pretty cute isn't he? but he's not your type right?" .. wow - what was i meant to say to that? anyway, i backed off. not like i liked him, coz obviously i didn't even know him.
when i got home and relayed the story to my roommate arin, she was shocked. and questioned whether cecilia is really my friend. but hey, she is who she is. i hope it wasn't intentional. but it has brought about a fair question. why do i keep meeting these type of girls, who seemingly subconsciously fight to get men?
there was the time when nat saw the guy that she liked at marquee, and she also pounced on him. he was casually looking around, when he looked over nat, and she immediately pounced on him, and said to him, "hey, are you australian? you look like an aussie!". i'd never seen anything like it before and it really amazed me.
then there was the whole fiasco that happened with ny-anita and the mind games that were played throughout that. that hit me hard though. and it reminded me of the movie wicker park. obviously wicker park was so much more exaggerated. yet - it goes to show how evil and how much damage girls can do.
but hey - i can't and don't want to compete with that. it's just not me. but does that equal to lost opportunities?
one of the reasons i came to nyc was because i was hoping i'd be able to explore who i am a little more, without the pressure of family and friends and people who knew me. but all i discovered was - i already am who i am. and i haven't changed one bit coming here. sometimes i speculate what would happen if i weren't so prudent.
when han came out to visit, he had a lot of positive energy emiting from him - and it has encouraged me to be a little more open-minded about some things. so maybe i will try and do things a little different. for example, i won't automatically turn down a guy if he asks if i'd like a drink. and maybe i might smile a little too... i don't know. i feel like i'm playing a game that i know nothing about.
when i got home and relayed the story to my roommate arin, she was shocked. and questioned whether cecilia is really my friend. but hey, she is who she is. i hope it wasn't intentional. but it has brought about a fair question. why do i keep meeting these type of girls, who seemingly subconsciously fight to get men?
there was the time when nat saw the guy that she liked at marquee, and she also pounced on him. he was casually looking around, when he looked over nat, and she immediately pounced on him, and said to him, "hey, are you australian? you look like an aussie!". i'd never seen anything like it before and it really amazed me.
then there was the whole fiasco that happened with ny-anita and the mind games that were played throughout that. that hit me hard though. and it reminded me of the movie wicker park. obviously wicker park was so much more exaggerated. yet - it goes to show how evil and how much damage girls can do.
but hey - i can't and don't want to compete with that. it's just not me. but does that equal to lost opportunities?
one of the reasons i came to nyc was because i was hoping i'd be able to explore who i am a little more, without the pressure of family and friends and people who knew me. but all i discovered was - i already am who i am. and i haven't changed one bit coming here. sometimes i speculate what would happen if i weren't so prudent.
when han came out to visit, he had a lot of positive energy emiting from him - and it has encouraged me to be a little more open-minded about some things. so maybe i will try and do things a little different. for example, i won't automatically turn down a guy if he asks if i'd like a drink. and maybe i might smile a little too... i don't know. i feel like i'm playing a game that i know nothing about.
posted by c`kREtZ at 5:38 pm
2 Comments:
humm.. sounds like youre hanging around desparate gals -- time for you to hang around gals who are not single.
gal, you are quite sexy- so no doubt you pull in the guys.. i dunno what you are complaining about - ?? i guess its a competition thing that the gals have when with you.
not sure if they are considered friends - since i have high standards when it comes to the ppl i hang with - if they treat you not so well, maybe they are not as close friends as you thought they were ??
hahah something like, your presence reminds them of their insecurities.. ???
haye dunno.. envy and jealousy are things girls and guys show - - thats why i dress down all the time.. ahahahahh -- kidding =P
Your friend is scarily forward. Its not that she's not your friend. When it comes to guy issues, I think that girls just don't care much for other girls. Like, if I liked someone & another girl liked him too, I would still hope that I would get him, to the detriment of the other girl.
Either way, I'll never understand girls who can have so much physical contact with guys they're not going out with. I saw it so much in HK & its just gross. I can't hang with ppl like that. No class whatsoever.
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