losing myself...

i'm losing myself in the city.... i don't know who i am anymore, and i'm scared.

did i lose myself in the big city? or did i lose myself in my prior relationship? or did i lose myself before i even left home?

i just feel so empty right now.

now that i've reached my career goal, i feel tired - too tired to set the next level of goals. and i seem to be failing in everything else.

i know that i'm doing much much better than i was this time last year. i've been promoted. i have a pay rise. i have several new close friends that i can rely on that i didn't have this time last year. i still have my wonderful friends and family back home and in hong kong who still love me and care about me. i'm over my ex-bf, which i wasn't at this time last year.

so how have things gotten worse over the past year? i've lost all integrity. hope. trust. i no longer enjoy the pleasures in life that i once loved. i've made new enemies, and lost some friends..

how can i be happy again? what happened to me?

maybe i just need sleep - this is why i shouldn't work 13 hour days...

ahhh - another contributor to losing myself... losing myself to work... poooooooooo...